Saturday, December 12, 2009
you feel as if you do everything
but have time to finish nothing?
Ever feel like an octopus
being pulled in eight directions at once?
Ever get so overwhelmed
your body kicks into pain or sick mode
just to slow your stubborn butt down?
That's been my life lately.
I took leisure time
to sip coffee
with my man
with the fam
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Tuesday, December 1, 2009
me•di•o•cre - adj.
Of moderate or low quality : ordinary (mediocrity)
(definition found in my handy dandy desktop Merriam Webster Dictionary)
I was thinking about the word mediocre earlier in the week. Truth be told it came to mind because that's the way I was feeling. Feeling mediocre is kind of a downer.
After pondering the word for a bit I had a bizarre epiphany.
Mediocre is a pretty lengthy and fancy word. The meaning does not do the word justice. How come "good" and "great" are so much better than "mediocre". They're plain little words without pizazz. I mean really. They only consist of one tiny little syllable! How great can they really be?
Mediocre sounds fancy, possibly even French with its "cre" ending. How grand a word you must be to prance around a sentence with four full and fanciful syllables.
I don't think the word gets the respect it deserves.
Hey, maybe it's the same for myself! Maybe I was feeling mediocre so I could have an epiphany about the word so I could see the correlation to myself! I feel mediocre, mediocre is so much more than it is given credit for, therefore, maybe I am so much more than what I give myself credit for!!! Yeah! I am pizazz, I am grand, I am so much more than moderate!
Gaaaah! Glad I released that crazy train of thought out of my brain. Now maybe there's some room to use for something more practical. Perhaps I could fill the space with kittens. Not literally, I mean to think about. Like as in "I could think about kittens" not "I should shove kittens in my brain to fill the space".
It's apparent my lack of sleep causes cranial consequences. I better go get some shut eye!
Friday, November 27, 2009
picture courtesy of www.picsearch.com
(28 days to an attitude of gratitude - learn more here)
Twenty-eight days to a new habit of forming an attitude of gratitude! Whew! Today I am grateful for achieving my goal. I am also grateful that the 28 days are up! Now I have more freedom in my posting.
There has definitely been a shift in my psyche during this little exercise. I often stop and realize how much I have to be grateful for. Don't worry, I'm not kidding myself with thinking I'm an ultra enlightened human being or anything (although I like to think I'm on my way). I still have bad days, negative thoughts and "woe is me" moments, but I also have created a habit of looking at all I have to be grateful for. The more gratitude is practiced, the more it will be second nature and will replace the negative.
How awesome that the exercise came to a close the day after Thanksgiving. Serendipity baby! Completely unplanned.
How about you? Did anyone follow along? Did anyone take on the challenge? Have you created an attitude of gratitude? What are you grateful for?
Thursday, November 26, 2009
Wednesday, November 25, 2009
- five loads of laundry clean, dry, folded
- one homemade pumpkin pie
- one autumn spinach apple salad
- one batch chocolate chip cookies
- one picnic lunch complete with basket & blanket
- two loads of dishes
- one supper of enchilladas
- one clean kitchen
- one swept floor
- six errands ran
- eight e-mails sent
- four kids showered, fed, happy, ready for bed
I'm off to kick my legs up in the recliner and slap in a movie. I Love Netflix!!!!!
Tuesday, November 24, 2009
(28 days to an attitude of gratitude - learn more here)
I had an assignment to cover an archaeological dig in my area. Second born has dreams of becoming an archaeologist when he grows up so I asked for permission to bring him to the site and permission was granted. The men in charge of the dig were incredibly gracious, informative and just plain nice people.
After the dig my son and I traveled to the site of an old abandoned motel site. It consists of a main building and many small stand alone rooms that used to be for rent. It was abandoned many decades ago and is now a site of structural skeletons. It was fun to explore and imagine the stories of the property.
I am very grateful for an incredibly fun and educational day spent with my second born.
What are you grateful for today?
Monday, November 23, 2009
Last night I was not able to post due to a computer malfunction. I sat down to my computer and the whole thing looked like an X-ray or something. It was quite freaky. Husband always says to "turn it off and back on and it will fix itself". His old standby. It didn't work.
This morning I was going to take it in to have it repaired hoping they would get it back in time for an article deadline I have looming. Teenager wants to see what's going on with it so I turn it on and he holds down (control+option+command) with his left hand while hitting the "8" key with his right. Voila! Problem solved.
"What the heck was that?" I say.
"Oh, that makes it so the colors are all inverted. Cool, huh?" says teen.
"Yeah, real cool. Don't do it again!" my response while laughing a nervous laugh of relief that my computer is not about to blow up.
Today I am grateful my computer is working properly, I am grateful for a healthy, curious son, and I am very grateful for my sense of humor. ;)
Saturday, November 21, 2009
Last night was another sleepless night in a long line of sleepless nights. The new kitten I adopted has been more than a handful. He has behavioral issues, digestive issues and we just finished with some health issues. I have not been getting much sleep due to dealing with him. I woke up this morning crabby, emotional and irritated. I cried my way through the morning and fought off the shakes.
I would like to take a moment to shout my gratitude today as hard days make the good all that much better! I AM GRATEFUL!!!!! for my loving family, for the progress of my step-father's chemo, for Thanksgiving dinner, and for SLEEP!!!! which I intend to get more than my share of this evening. Sleep. Don't cat's make it look so easy?
Friday, November 20, 2009
Yesterday was a very busy day and my body was retaliating from all the work I put it through. I gave myself the evening off to relax for a bit and fear the relaxation worked a wee too well as I fell asleep before having a chance to post! I am grateful for the relaxation and for the fact that I have come very far in my "growth as a human being" process and can easily forgive myself. ;) Positive self-talk is a very good thing.
Today was spent running errands (grateful for all I achieved), talking with friends and neighbors (grateful for the presence of every one of them in my life), and walking a wooded path with my family (eternally grateful for my little clan). The weather has been beautiful (grateful for that) and my mood has been matching (everyone is grateful for that!)
Wednesday, November 18, 2009
Sunday, November 15, 2009
The last few weeks have been really trying for me. Lots of sadness, stress and trying times. How wonderful that I started this Gratitude challenge for myself right when I need it most. I am grateful the universe keeps sending me reminders of keeping a Gratitude Attitude. I have run across many articles, blogs and websites with gratitude as a topic since starting this journey. The universe does provide and what you think of does attract.
Saturday, November 14, 2009
(28 days to an attitude of gratitude - learn more here)
Today was no different than any other. I was walking, I spotted the note and I passed it. It was apparent it had been there for some time as it was faded and well traveled upon. I continued on as I did not want to seem odd to others picking up some random piece of another shopper's litter.
Was it a shopping list? Perhaps a note declaring someone's undying love for another? I walked on bothered by the fact that instead of acting on my own spirit and curiosity, I was instead caving to the insecurities of worrying what others might think of me as I picked up the dirty note. Then again, it was litter and why should anyone ever let litter lay?
A conscious choice was made today to turn around, march back the 20 yards I had proceeded and pick up the note. It was so satisfying to go with my heart rather than my ego. I clutched the note and smiled all the way to the car.
As you can see by the scan above, the paper contained directions. Who's directions? Where was the person going? Where did they come from? What was the reason for their travels? Did they ever reach their destination without their carefully planned directions? Or were these directions simply an afterthought of a trip already taken just waiting to be discarded from the floor of the car by a foot rushing out the door?
I love objects that cause one to think and imagine. Would you like to take a stab at the story contained within the note? Leave it in the form of a comment. Turn it into a book. Write it in your journal. Ponder it over coffee.
I have spent time on a magical website in the past that caters to just this sort of find. Care to indulge in a little fun? www.foundmagazine.com
I am grateful for my bravery of battling ego today. I am grateful for imagination, curiosity and mystery.
Friday, November 13, 2009
I love and acknowledge that I am half way through my 28 days to an attitude of gratitude!!!
Thursday, November 12, 2009
Wednesday, November 11, 2009
How would we ever have guessed it was also an investment in entertainment. We have game night on the table, entertain family and friends over the table and enjoy the spontaneity and creativity of our children's imaginations at the table. The picture posted above was taken in the summer. My teen was making pancakes one weekend morning and the two little ones happily devoured them decked out in their pj's and swim goggles!
Last night over dinner, we discussed Purple People Eaters. We could not come to a solid conclusion on whether the People Eaters were Purple or if they were of a different color but ate Purple People! Ha! What a fun and silly conversation we found ourselves in without even realizing how silly it really was! I am grateful for my children, their creativity, spontaneity and imaginations. I am grateful they have opened up the magical world of make believe in our home.
Please feel free to share photos and/or stories of spontaneous family moments from your home.
Tuesday, November 10, 2009
Day 11 (today) was spent rather lazily. I am very happy I have been working on my 28 days to an attitude of gratitude as it has been a pretty hard month or so. Making gratitude part of my daily inner and outer dialog has helped me get through the rough spots. I am grateful for this journal.
The following pictures were taken by me while I was driving. Don't worry folks! I was paying full attention to the road. My camera was in the passenger seat and the kiddos were in the back. I don't even remember where I was headed but I was feeling overwhelmed. My mind tends to get creative when I need a diversion from negativity. The lights of the cars in front of me were such a contrast to the evening sky settling in. I wondered what it would look like in a photo. I reached next to me, picked up the camera and shot without looking through the viewfinder (remember I was driving). I just held it up and shot. When I came home and downloaded the pictures I thought they looked pretty cool! They are also a good representation of how I have been feeling lately.
I am really working hard at allowing self expression into my life. Fear and self-judgment so often puts on the brakes. Even posting these photos is a step as it allows others into my quirky mind and the quirky things I do in life. But is it really quirky? Maybe it's just creativity. Here's a great little video on self-expression. Enjoy!
Sunday, November 8, 2009
imagine a picture
of a large mirror
Part of the process of establishing an attitude of gratitude is to share. To be thankful is passive but to actually show thanks or give thanks or say thanks is active. There is action behind the emotion. It has an affect on others by spreading the positive feeling. I hope to pass on the gratitude by letting you know how grateful I am for you! (pssst! pass it on!)
Saturday, November 7, 2009
Here is what I thought about and was grateful for yesterday. It was a low pain day (I have fibromyalsia) and I was grateful for that as it allowed me to accomplish a lot. I was grateful that it was payday which always reminds me how lucky I am he has a decent job that supports his family. I was grateful for movie night as it was a lot of fun, raised money for the school and allowed so many kids and adults to share a fun, family based Friday night.
Thursday, November 5, 2009
(28 days to an attitude of gratitude - learn more here)
Wednesday, November 4, 2009
He likes to challenge my patience and is a bit moody some days but he is an outstanding young man. He spends most of his time with the family, gets along well with everyone, respects (for the most part) our rules, and is very loving. He does not get into trouble and does well in school. When he has behavior hiccups or grades start slipping, we discuss the issues, figure out what can be changed and he works at improving the situation.
(He likes to pick on his siblings and frustrate his dad but what teen doesn't? And what the heck is up with teens needing so much sleep? Could it be the late night read-a-thons? Riding bikes, playing football and early morning school days? Or is it the freakish growth spurts?)
I am also grateful that I remember what it's like to be a teenager with mood swings, thinking you know everything and the pressures of school. With these memories comes the compassion necessary to properly handle any negative attitudes or behaviors that may arise. It also allows me to realize his need to grow in person, in freedom and in self-expression. I was very young when he was born and we have grown exponentially together. I am so proud of the young man he is becoming.
I am extremely grateful for my loving, talented, healthy, wonderful teenager.
Tuesday, November 3, 2009
Not everyone that knows me may appreciate these qualities in me. Many who know me may not be fully aware of this side of me as I have kept it somewhat sheltered. If I trust you, you get all of me. If I fear judgment or ridicule, I may keep some of it at bay. The older I get, the more I turn into a healthy, self-expressive, show us what you got kinda gal!
Humor - for some reason I think jokes about flatulence or excrement are hilarious. Yes, you heard me, I'm talking poop and farts. Strange but true. Another true fact? The jokes are funny. The actual act of either grosses me out completely. Not Funny!
Self-expression - I come up with mantras, quotes, little sayings and post them all over my house. Might be some epiphany I had or words of encouragement, even a goofy expression I come up with that makes me laugh. I write them on my shower walls, my bathroom mirror, sticky notes all over my computer or anywhere else in the house I have the hankering to adore. My latest mantra (made by me) is "positive action = positive abundance". The stanza to a song I came up with "happiness is so hard to find when you live your life through someone else's eyes". I don't know how to write music or songs, but I actually came up with the jingle to accompany it. No clue how to write it out!
You have to check out the websites of Keri Smith and Sark. I love them for their fearless acts of self-expression and their passion for helping others open up to their own creative side. My husband needs to spend time with these fine women as he is uber creative (building, carving, drawing, sculpting) but fearful of exposure. That's him below working on his second chainsaw carving. Wow! What a man!
Monday, November 2, 2009
I am thankful for the time we spent conversing at parties, for the laughs he gave me and for the time he took out of his schedule to help me understand my camera a little better. I am also thankful for the positive and supportive words he shared with me about my work.
On Saturday I was given the news that Chunk passed away unexpectedly this past Tuesday.
May he rest in peace.
Sunday, November 1, 2009
Saturday, October 31, 2009
Today I am grateful my kitten is feeling better after a medical scare. I am also thankful for my wonderful husband and gorgeous kids as we are about to have a fun-filled, spooktacular Halloween together!
I read somewhere that it takes 28 days to make or break a habit. Numbers are not my strong point but this one always stuck with me. What a simple little number! It is so much easier to look towards a long term goal if you can break it into smaller increments. If it only takes a mere 28 days to make a good habit or break a bad one, why that's totally do-able.
I have been given a lot of thought lately to having an Attitude of Gratitude. If the "power of suggestion", "what we think we create" and "The Secret" are truthful theories, then adding a Gratitude Attitude to my life is a goal I wish to achieve.
Not only will it help me to be a more positive person but it will bring more positivity into the world. One person's act of gratitude has the ability to affect many others. The first hand effect would be for the person receiving the thanks to feel good. That person would then take that good feeling into their day and encounter others with positivity, thus causing a second hand effect. The more gratitude and good feeling thrown into the universe, the more the universe vibrates with positive energy. Send your gratitude out in the form of thought, action, words, art, whatever feels right to you.
Today I am starting my 28 days toward a new habit of holding a Gratitude Attitude. I would love for you to join me in posting your gratitude(s) for the day along with me!
Wednesday, October 28, 2009
I have known energy vampires (extremely negative people who suck any positivity out of your day and leave you feeling negative and defeated) and have had more than my fair share of negative people and influences in my life. I have also seen my fair share of negative days where nothing seems to go right, my mood is the pits and I'm feeling mighty low. My saving grace is the fact that I was born an optimist.
I love to laugh, smile and love; tend to see the glass as half full; and have been able to move past most negativity. Part of the process has been to choose not to have hurtful people in my life, to act consciously and think positively.
With all the work and awareness, pain still enters. Sometimes it is brought on myself by letting my guard down and allowing others words to hurt me. Other times it is by my own actions when not fully staying aware. Allowing myself to throw out negativity attracts more back. Still other times it may be due to the simple human flaw of misunderstanding (we drag our baggage with us and may think someone is saying one thing when really they meant another).
This happened recently to me on a blog. I truly love this blog and read it regularly. On occasion the author says things that cause me to bristle, but I move on without judgement and love the parts I love and disregard what may not be for me. She did not have the same respect for her devoted follower.
I decided to comment on a post and fear I may have added too much sarcasm, forgetting the typed word does not show inflection (like a voice). Not everyone grew up with the sarcasm and crass humor I did. That should be obvious to me but was overlooked. All posts on this blog must be accepted by the owner. She accepted and proceeded to attack. Yikes!
I will admit my fault in not re-reading my reply. I most likely would have noticed how my approach in the reply could have been construed as "not nice". I was thick on the sarcasm. I do wish the blog owner would have simply rejected my comment and pointed out my wayward words somewhere other than the thread so I could be enlightened without ridicule. To make it look ugly (which is not what I intended) and then to attack was a lot of unnecessary negative energy.
This is my admission of fault in the matter and my wish to the universe to continue to guide me on becoming ever more positive. Dear universe, when I stray or am perceived as being astray, gently guide me back on track thus keeping negative energy at bay. Negative energy can build and build. I wish to be a positive beacon of light so that I may reflect negativity and brighten the world.
I am only human with good moods and bad, positive thoughts and negative, ups and downs. I have made many mistakes in the past and will make more in the future. I am aware of this. I am also aware that I am learning and I have choices. I choose positivity to both give and receive. I choose.
I am aware that I used the word "I" entirely too much in this post, darned it! Will have to work on that for next time. Hitting the sack for now my friends. Love and peaceful vibes to you.
(p.s. the universe already knows the story behind the picture above. for all you sentient beings, this was taken a few years ago during a fall camping trip in Door County, WI)
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
The first picture is a view of a car that drove "into" the UPS store. I was standing at the bed store two doors down. The second picture was taken after the wrecker was able to pull the car out. The stinker part? The store had just finished a huge remodel job. Once I found out no one was hurt I was struck with a case of the giggles!
Sure seems to me as if we all live at warp speed these days.
Us: My schedule is too hectic. I have too much to do with no time to do it. I have to go, go, go with no leisure time to enjoy.Universe responding: You want to slow down? (crash) Now you'll have to stop for a moment!
Think about it.
People are funny :0)
Sunday, July 12, 2009
That sums up a lot of my life. I have been know to say that I am the second worst decision maker in the world married to the worst! Between the two of us I am suprised anything ever gets accomplished! This blog is a good example. I thought about having this blog for a long time. I thought and thought and thought. A lot of what I do is cranial and lacking in action. I question everything! Suprisingly, after much thought and swallowing down the big lump of fear and doubt, I did it! I started this blog.
The idea was to have a place to jot down all the "stuff" that floats around in my head. In 3D land my experience with this is quite chaotic. I do a lot of thinking in the shower since it's the only place I am ever alone (for the most part). I write on the shower walls but it tends to wash away and once I am done showering and shut the door, my musings are literally "out of sight, out of mind". I write on scraps of paper or fill random notebooks but this ends up being a very scattered and disorganized manner of keeping track of thoughts. Thinking a blog would be a good outlet (everything is in one place and I am finally putting myself out in the world creatively) led me to question everything about it.
Oooooh, I hate criticism and tend to take it too personally so it doesn't feel safe. What if what I write something and then change my mind about it later? There are soooo many blogs out there, what if no one reads mine? What if someone does? What if no one relates? What if a lot of people relate? What if I have nothing to say? What if I come across as a whack job? Does any of it matter? Why would I want to publicize random thoughts? Wouldn't it be great if others found it a safe place to share their random thoughts with me?
The initial intention was to name the blog "Cranial Vomit" as that is what I was thinking. When you have eaten too much whether self induced or mom making you finish your plate or your caring grandmother force feeding you because your slightly overweight frame looks "too skinny" for her, eventually your stomach must relieve itself of the contents and... you vomit. Such a harsh word. I thought it was catchy, memorable, made sense to me but the response from the few people I questioned was not good. So I opted for purge. Cranial purge is the ridding of ones mind of overindulgence in thought whether self-inflicted (living in your head) or fed by others (media, friends and family, whatever).
Not sure if any of this makes sense to anyone but me. I guess that's what this blog is about! If you get it, welcome and feel free to purge along with me! Please be nice to each other (and to me). Loving vibes are the best vibes.
If you find yourself saying "WTF?" thanks for checking it out anyways. Peace and love to ya as you move on to other bigger and better blogs!