Just Do It

No, this is not a motivational speech from the Nike© Ad Campaign. It's me sharing my inner dufus.

I was sitting in my room the other day trying to figure out what the heck my problem is (which was a little impossible as I clearly have more than one problem with each most likely holding multiple solutions) and why I can't stay focused or figure out what it is I am supposed to be focusing on in the first place. I have fibro which gives me fibro brain fog which doesn't help the clarification process in my foggy groggy mind. Beyond the fibro lies the fact that I am responsible 24/7 for the scheduling and well-being of 6 individuals (confusion anyone?). Top that off with my constant desire to figure out my "calling" (like successfully raising four kids and a husband to be sound, happy, highly functioning individuals isn't calling enough) in life. It all adds up to a mixed up feeling of discontent.

I want to feel successful at something. I want to make money. I want to have a life outside of motherhood and wifely duties.

I thought I would meditate on my little dilemma for a while. My most successful meditations occur during heavy duty laundry folding expeditions, so I gathered several baskets of clean, unfolded clothing and began to fold. The monotony of folding, the clean smell of the clothing, the sharp snap of the clothes as I... okay I'm getting off track here.

I set my mind to laundry folding auto-pilot and let my sub-conscience kick in. What would Ghandi do to solve my problems? What about Tolle or Chopra?

Question #1 - How do I become successful?
Sub-conscience Answer - Do - to be successful you must first get out of your head and into your body. Put your desires, your dreams into action. If you don't know exactly what you are to be doing? Do something. Anything. Action is the answer. Get the ball rolling. A body in action stays in action. Do

Question #2 - How do I know what my life calling is? What am I supposed to be doing with my life (aside from be the best damned mom money can't buy? Who am I supposed to be?
Subconscience Answer - Be - Be yourself. Be present. Exist as you are. Don't dwell on it. Don't question it. Don't think about it. Just BE. If you live as you are without the mental chatter and allow yourself to just Be you without judgment, pre-meditative action, planning, if you just exist as you are, you will know who you truly are. You will live from the heart and soul rather than the head. You will realize you already are as you are supposed to Be. And you will find happiness in that. Be you.

There were my answers. Two tiny little words. I repeated them in my head over and over to adhere them to memory.

Do

Be

Do

Be

Next thing you know, this is what it sounded like in my skull...

Do Be Do Be DooBeeDooBeeDoo

Egad! Even my sub-conscience is a dork! No wonder I can't focus. It's too amusing in here (points to cranium).

For shits and giggles I looked up a few Doo Bee Doo Bee's for you!

#1

According to www.urbandictionary.com

	doo bee doo
	Sound made by bored people to fill silence. Mostly in textual communication, but sometimes in verbal. Originates from people whistling or singing a little tune when idle. personone: Doo bee doo persontwo: hum dee dum personthree: lah dee dah

#2

DooBeeDooBeeDoo a cross-cultural on-line music magazine

#3

#4

Inspiration and a Giggle

~Inspiration~

I vowed against New Year's Resolutions years ago,

instead choosing a word of the year for the past three years.

This year has changed me (already).

I wrote my word for the year on the bathroom mirror as a reminder.

I woke the next morning to this...

My darling eight year old daughter chose a resolution for the year and placed it next to my word.

How can I not adopt it as well?

Children are such wonderful teachers.

Word of the year...

Faith

Resolution...

Play By The Heart 

~Giggle~

This past December I attended my daughter's school Christmas concert. I stood in the back as the room was full. The kids were so much fun to watch. They oozed holiday cheer as if they had practiced with elves and sipped Christmas Kool-aid. Me? I knew their secret. He was standing to my left! Shhhhh...

Santa... er... Mr. School Janitor

Faith Continued

 I did not choose this year's word.

It chose me.

Faith

At first I was scared.

That's how I roll.

Fear.

How am I to tackle a year of faith?

I don't even know if I have faith?

What does faith even mean?

Letting go of control?

I work hard to have the little control I have!

That's when I realized that faith is the opposite of fear

and I have always lived holding the hand of fear.

My challenge is to drop fear's hand and pick up the hand of faith.

Faith

is 

trust

letting go

dreaming

believing in something bigger than ourselves

 

We get one shot at life

We must choose how to spend it.

Live dying

or

die living.

Faith.

Yeah.

I could use a good dose of that.

I'll give you five reasons I am choosing to work at walking in faith.

Christmas Day Nature Hike 2012

Faith Quotes

Faith is not without worry or care, but faith is fear that has said a prayer.  ~Author Unknown

Faith is courage; it is creative while despair is always destructive.  ~David S. Muzzey

As your faith is strengthened you will find that there is no longer the need to have a sense of control, that things will flow as they will, and that you will flow with them, to your great delight and benefit.  ~Emmanuel

In faith there is enough light for those who want to believe and enough shadows to blind those who don't.  ~Blaise Pascal

Faith can move mountains, but don't be surprised if God hands you a shovel.  ~Author Unknown

Feed your faith and your fears will starve to death.  ~Author Unknown