Just Do It

No, this is not a motivational speech from the Nike© Ad Campaign. It's me sharing my inner dufus.

I was sitting in my room the other day trying to figure out what the heck my problem is (which was a little impossible as I clearly have more than one problem with each most likely holding multiple solutions) and why I can't stay focused or figure out what it is I am supposed to be focusing on in the first place. I have fibro which gives me fibro brain fog which doesn't help the clarification process in my foggy groggy mind. Beyond the fibro lies the fact that I am responsible 24/7 for the scheduling and well-being of 6 individuals (confusion anyone?). Top that off with my constant desire to figure out my "calling" (like successfully raising four kids and a husband to be sound, happy, highly functioning individuals isn't calling enough) in life. It all adds up to a mixed up feeling of discontent.

I want to feel successful at something. I want to make money. I want to have a life outside of motherhood and wifely duties.

I thought I would meditate on my little dilemma for a while. My most successful meditations occur during heavy duty laundry folding expeditions, so I gathered several baskets of clean, unfolded clothing and began to fold. The monotony of folding, the clean smell of the clothing, the sharp snap of the clothes as I... okay I'm getting off track here.

I set my mind to laundry folding auto-pilot and let my sub-conscience kick in. What would Ghandi do to solve my problems? What about Tolle or Chopra?

Question #1 - How do I become successful?
Sub-conscience Answer - Do - to be successful you must first get out of your head and into your body. Put your desires, your dreams into action. If you don't know exactly what you are to be doing? Do something. Anything. Action is the answer. Get the ball rolling. A body in action stays in action. Do

Question #2 - How do I know what my life calling is? What am I supposed to be doing with my life (aside from be the best damned mom money can't buy? Who am I supposed to be?
Subconscience Answer - Be - Be yourself. Be present. Exist as you are. Don't dwell on it. Don't question it. Don't think about it. Just BE. If you live as you are without the mental chatter and allow yourself to just Be you without judgment, pre-meditative action, planning, if you just exist as you are, you will know who you truly are. You will live from the heart and soul rather than the head. You will realize you already are as you are supposed to Be. And you will find happiness in that. Be you.

There were my answers. Two tiny little words. I repeated them in my head over and over to adhere them to memory.

Do

Be

Do

Be

Next thing you know, this is what it sounded like in my skull...

Do Be Do Be DooBeeDooBeeDoo

Egad! Even my sub-conscience is a dork! No wonder I can't focus. It's too amusing in here (points to cranium).

For shits and giggles I looked up a few Doo Bee Doo Bee's for you!

#1

According to www.urbandictionary.com

	doo bee doo
	Sound made by bored people to fill silence. Mostly in textual communication, but sometimes in verbal. Originates from people whistling or singing a little tune when idle. personone: Doo bee doo persontwo: hum dee dum personthree: lah dee dah

#2

DooBeeDooBeeDoo a cross-cultural on-line music magazine

#3

#4

All over the map

Following a trail to a far off place.

Not sure where I'm going.

Know all too well where I've been.

I wander from the trail

exploring and discovering

all the world has to offer.

There is breathtaking scenery

and there is danger lurking.

I get lost.

I call for help.

Someone find me.

Guide me.

Perhaps a compass would help.

Or clear directions to where true north lies.

I have neither.

Instead I must look within.

Find my center.

A good starting point for sure.

I've been all over the map lately. My word of the year (focus) seems to be most challenging. Obviously the correct choice for me as I am proving over and over that I need to work harder at it. I'm feeling lately that it could be my word of the decade for how challenging it has been. I am Stretch-Arm-Strong in a daycare being pulled in too many directions at once.

I am currently facing some life altering challenges and decisions. Some I have the ability to influence the outcome, some I have absolutely no control over. For both types of situation the best bet is to find my center and move on from there. Focus and carry on. Challenging for sure. Think I'll go revisit my meditation post.

Mastering Meditation

It's lamb season at the farm.

Watching those sweet fuzzy babies brings peace to my heart.

Today's news headline brings hope to so very many.

Peace and hope.

Important words.

Light words.

Love words.

I have tried for YEARS to meditate

finding it near impossible to shut down the chattering of my brain.

To focus.

My breathing is not steady and I struggle in that area as well.

I am ecstatic to say I have cracked the code!

Not everyone wants to meditate.

Not everyone who practices has difficulty.

For those who do, you have to find what works for you.

Some approach meditation traditionally.

Some walk and meditate.

Some use visualization.

Some use prayer.

I am going to share my technique in hopes it will help someone else

who is struggling, find a way that works for them.

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The term "Let go and let God".

Valuable

You do not have to be religious.

You do not have to be of a particular religion.

Consider God to be God, Higher Power, Divine Being, Energy.

Whatever your belief.

I have practiced "Let go and let God".

It has been important to me.

I tend to have control issues.
I tend to take on too much.

I tend to live cranial.

One night as I was sitting in bed

very troubled

trying to meditate

I decided to let go and let God.

Something clicked.

I applied it to meditation.

As I exhaled, I thought "Let go"

(let go of worry, anxiety, control, all the negative, exhale it out of your body)

As I inhaled, I thought "Let God"

(bring in the good, the love, the peace, the positive, inhale and fill your body with good)

Exhale = Let Go

Inhale = Let God

Exhale

Inhale

Exhale

Inhale

As I said those four little words

visualizing all negative leaving with the exhaled breath

and all positive entering on the inhale

I achieved my first successful meditation session.

Call it prayer,

call it meditation, 

call it whatever you wish.

It works for me

and perhaps it will work for you as well.

May you have a Peace and Hope filled day!

Happy Monday!