I have not blogged in a while.
I always mean to.
But never do.
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I think about it.
I analyze it.
I say I will.
I find excuses.
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Is it the fear of failure?
Is it the fear of judgement?
Is it the lack of time? (which is legit by the way)
Or is it something else?
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Considering I signed up to this deal on my own
for myself
by myself
with no intended reason or purpose and no real goal
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I have come to the conclusion that it is myself I fear.
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My self-judgement
my fear of failure
my fear of what others may think
my fear of being me
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I am okay with me
but are others okay with me?
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That question leads me to believe I am not as okay with me as I lead myself to think.
Now that's something worth pondering.
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This post is dedicated to the person I see in the mirror every day of my life.
I vow to work harder at loving you for you.