Patience

Patience Please

as my body kicks my a$$ in another major fibro flare.

I'm trying. I really am.

The patience thing gets hard when suffering with chronic pain.

Little things feel huge.

Annoyances become astronomical.

People still expect and want and need

not understanding that I'm not always capable.

I look okay.

I feel like I was in a major car wreck.

Don't know if it's the weather.

Don't know if it's stress.

Don't know what's setting it off but I know it's been a while.

Lost a follower this week.

Don't blame 'em.

I've been MIA.

I've been uninspiring.

I've been lost for decent words.

I'm working through it.

I have good ideas in the making.

I have a surprise for tomorrow.

Sometimes all we have to do is look around for gentle reminders.

My cats.

They remind me to live in the moment.

They remind me to have patience.

They remind me I am loved and needed.

I really don't remember where I was going with this post.

My mind is not working as clearly as I would like.

For now. I ask. Patience please

while I work through my physical issues.

I feel like I haven't fully been present here in the blog world for some time.

I've been lurking and learning and loving.

Be back tomorrow with a fun story.

Guerilla Art Assignment

Remember the online course I'm taking?
Experimental art e-course
Did I tell you I won the spot in the class? Yup. Over at Free Spirit Knits

Check out Shannon's blog.

She's talented, sweet, and full of positive energy.

She teaches a class that is starting soon called Inside Out.

Taking the Experimental Art e-course has been good.

Very, very good.

It has caused me to experiment,

play, broaden my horizon.

It has forced me to post art I would never have posted.

Forced me out of my comfort zone in many ways.


The class has come to a close.
The last and biggest assignment has been posted
and I am IN LOVE with it!!!!

Guerilla Art


I'd tell you more about what I have chosen to do
but when I think about it
I feel as if I'll explode!
To save you that sight,
I will wait to share
until the task is complete.


For now, here's a sneak peek...

Patience

Patience

 When I was a young child I had plenty of patience.

Life taught me to rush, push, go, do.

Fight or flight had replaced patience years ago.

I chose to adapt patience back into my life.

It is a struggle at times.

I have come a long way and have gained much in the practice of patience.

I also have moments where I lose it.

Lose patience with life.

With myself.

When I lose patience with the kids I feel the worst.

They don't understand.

They feel the push, the rush, the stress.

Sometimes they cry.

I stop.

It hurts me that it hurts them.

I forgive myself for forgetting patience.

I appologize.

Explain.

Practice patience once again.

Watch, observe, learn from the children.

They own the key to peace and patience.

Watch, observe, learn from nature.

There, also, lies the key.

As the maple forms it's buds

and slowy,

patiently

turns them into beautiful full leaves.

Bask in the shade.

Feel the peace.

You have to be patient

but it is there

and worth the wait.

Patiently Waiting

covers of white

hibernation

patiently waiting

sun warms

snow melts

peeking

stretches of green

reaching

blooms burst

spring has sprung

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The first year we moved into our home I planted crocus bulbs below the bay window.

One can never tell when spring has truly sprung

unless one listens to Mother Nature.

She is the surest sign. 

The crocus is my little announcer.

Never failing to shout out the first signs of spring

and always doing so with such splendor of voice.

I have not witnessed the beauty of this year's blossoms

as of yet... but soon.

Very soon.

 

For now I will allow the crocus to lead

and I will act as he

and be patient,

for all good things

are worth waiting for.

Shit!

I just spent the last 1 1/2 hours trying to play with this photo in photoshop.

Thought I was on to something.

Total failure!

Instead it's being posted unedited.
Perhaps you would like to try? Feel free to use it.

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Trying to teach an old dog new tricks is one thing.

Try getting that dog to teach himself!

Now that's a real challenge.

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I am self-taught on most everything in life

as that's the way the cards have unfolded for me.

Not a lot of advantages, not a lot of educational opportunities.

Therefore, I teach myself.

I am learning.

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Today is teaching me patience.

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I am working on a list.

My birthday is coming up.

It is the tenth anniversary of my 29th birthday.

My list will be 40 by 40.

Forty things I want to accomplish by my 40th birthday.

My present to myself is to feel good about 40.

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My list will now start...

40 by 40

#1. Learn Photoshop

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This post seems rather random in thought.

Guess that's been my thought process lately.

How about you?

What have you learned lately?

What are you working on?

What do you wish to achieve?